moving haul

So I wasn’t going to buy a bunch of Dark Academia inspired clothing but then I found out I’m moving to a completely different climate. I had a couple things that were really nice for the cold mornings and evenings we’ve had recently but then I fell down a rabbithole. So, I’m selling and giving away tons of stuff and decided I could/should buy some stuff for the new climate. It’s in the PNW and I’ve lived there before and I always like wearing layers and… what’s it called… “sleeves”? Yes, those thing. I’ve almost always got a chill there unless it’s the dead of summer so…. yeah, haul time!

I’m so looking forward to this, you don’t even know. I’m sweating and miserable here 97% of the time. It’s an inescapable heat that makes me feel trapped and frantic for escape. It’ll be shifting to warmer weather by the time I get to the new place but even my warmest SoCal clothes aren’t going to be enough.

I got most of these off ThredUp with 35% coupons (hashtag not spons), some of it off depop, and very little of it is new. Most of it is still in transit but I think I got some really suitable stuff and got lucky with coupons and sales.

Tops:

So the tennis sweater in the middle there is so very decidedly not me, but I think it’s such a cool item. I hope I’ll be able to make it work for me.

I have a really neat blazer with elbow patches I’m picking up on Wednesday from a local free group. I’m so excited for it. I’ve always loved blazers. I’ll try to remember to poke a pic of it here if I think about it.

Bottoms:

That plaid skirt has built in shorts! The brown skirt ended up being rather short so I’ll have to wear it with tights/safety shorts. The houndstooth pants are ridiculously comfortable.

Etc:

The beret suits me really well, I love it so much. It will be nice to wear when my head gets cold but it’s not going to be too warm.

I’ve been wanting a laptop bag for so long. I kept putting it off though. And then the pandemic hit and I didn’t need it at all. I’ll be traveling by train so it’s going to be indispensable.

I would like to eventually pick up a brown pair of shoes, maybe heeled oxfords, loafers, or a boot. But I am fine with the shoes I have for now. There is a pair of pants I have in mind to get later on down the road but I think the only other thing I would want is a satchel style purse. I can use a tote I got in a monthly subscription awhile back. It’s not ideal but it holds a beefy book and a water bottle, lip balm and my wallet. So it’ll do!

Oh, and I have one other Etc type item that I should stick in here:

I got this off the local Buy Nothing group the other day! Isn’t she handsome? and she has wheels! It’s going to be so useful whether I bring it with me on the train or not.

I have played around a bit with some of the items I already have, blending them a bit with my existing wardrobe. I don’t have any great shots but:

the skirt pictured above + a lightweight sweater + wig + key necklace + ignore that beanie, I was fucking around
houndstooth pants from above, Bauhaus shirt, mary janes from above, hand knit socks, and my fountain pen. I was going for a little chaotic vibe here but I just look like I have jeans on.
suggestion title “When you want to finish a chapter of A Secret History but you’re undead undead undead”

I haven’t played around a whole lot because I’ve been so busy getting rid of things. It was nice to sit down and relax and get excited about a better climate and day dream about how it’ll be so nice dealing with being cold vs hot.

I’m so happy to see DA getting popular and I hope I can make some like-minded friends, especially some ADHD ones, maybe we can swap reading tips!

Let me know down below, what are your thoughts on this aesthetic? And have you ever had to move to a completely different climate and how did you handle it?

a questionable guide to minimalism

Minimalism is a tool to rid yourself of life’s excess in favor of focusing on what’s important—so you can find happiness, fulfillment, and freedom.

The Minimalists

A nice lady in a completely unrelated Facebook group I’m in saw my blog and quickly became interested in my minimalist posts. She suggested I write more about it. That was *cough* last summer but hey, here I am!

Disclaimer: I don’t think I am The One to be talking about this. This is just how I, and many others, see minimalism. You should absolutely spend a little time looking into this, gather ideas and inspo and see if it’s right for you.

I started my minimalist journey with KonMarie back in 2015. The post is probably cringy. Don’t read it. I think that it’s worth mentioning that minimalism and KonMarie are not quite the same thing and I may get into that later. But that is still where all this began for me.

What is minimalism?

This is a debated topic in some circles but minimalism is largely seen as living without excess. It’s a tool, a mindset, a lifestyle, and *cough* an aesthetic. This post isn’t about minimalist art, design, or structure. It’s more about looking at what you own and asking yourself some questions. There aren’t any official “rules” you have to follow except the ones that you make for yourself.

The way I see it is I’d rather be invited to a smaller party with all my favorite people than a huge party with a ton of strangers and a few of my favorite people. I would rather focus on enjoying my time with the people I like the most rather than be overwhelmed amongst strangers in an effort to find my people.

How many items am I allowed to have?

Well I don’t know, how many items do you want to have? How much space do you have to work with? What is your life like? Don’t ask me! It’s going to vary, person to person. And you probably shouldn’t even count your stuff, that could get annoying. There are people who get really hung up on numbers… if it works for them, great. But that’s not the point.

There are some minimalists who live out of a backpack and hand wash their clothes every other night. Some minimalists can’t hand wash their clothes frequently and they have really messy dirty jobs or hobbies and need more clothes than some. Some minimalists have one more more hobbies that require many items. How many items you keep is going to first and foremost depend on your lifestyle.

OK but why minimalism?

Well it’s different for everyone. I can’t quite remember why I started on this path but I personally find that visual clutter adds to my anxiety. I also really like being able to find something quickly when I need it. It’s much less frustrating to look for an object among 25 objects than 250 objects. I think minimalism in general helps with some of my ADHD frustrations.

Other people go for minimalism so they can easily travel the world without worrying about their things. Others may do it to save money. Or for spiritual reasons. Everybody has their own reason.

What’s your problem with the aesthetic then?

Yo, I’m big on the aesthetic. It’s just that some people get a hold of the trend and try to sell on the idea that you have to have stark white walls, no furniture, certain colored things, buy only certain brands, etc. You know: people who want to make a buck or gatekeepers.

If that is what you want in your life, that’s great. But you don’t have to do that to be a minimalist. Minimalism can look so many different ways. I couldn’t stand being surrounded stark white walls and I find some furniture very handy, thank-you-very-much.

Isn’t minimalism for rich people?

Not really? Ugh. I hear this way too much. It’s for anyone who wants to be a minimalist. Before I even knew what minimalism was I had spent good chunks of time living out of 1-2 backpacks and I had no money. I just had what I had and used that. I wasn’t buying $80 merino wool shirts. I… used what I had. I lived with various other people and was allowed to use the household things (cookware and such).

It helps to have the money to buy nicer quality things that will last longer. A quality pair of shoes will last longer than a cheap pair of shoes. It can be hard saving up for the those shoes and if you just can’t do it, I think it’s fine.

As I’ve said, minimalism doesn’t have official rules you have to follow outside of the basic idea of “live without excess”. Use that idea and make it fit your current situation.

What can I minimize?

Everything physical you own: books, electronics, trash, mail, Christmas cards, unfinished projects, finished projects, white elephant gifts, ungifted gifts, clothes, etc.

But also intangible things: Toxic relationships, digital files, e-mails, bad habits, bad foods, etc.

OK, how do I go minimalist?

There are many ways to go about this! You can use one technique, or many. There are even games to make it fun. I’ll list only 3 items here.

The Moving/Packing Game: When you’ve moved into a new place, keep everything packed. Only pull out things when you need them. After a certain amount of time you gotta go do an honest poke through the boxes. Think about why you haven’t needed what you didn’t use and consider getting rid of them.

30 Day Minimizing Challenge: Not moving anytime soon? Or you are and want to lighten the load beforehand? Try throwing out 1 thing on day 1, 2 on day 2, 3 on day 3, and so forth. If you make it the whole 30 days you end up throwing away over 400 things.

The Tidy Up Challenge: OK I don’t know what to call this. I came up with it yeeeears ago and I used it before I knew minimalism was “a thing”. It’s pretty similar to the Packing game but a little more chill and my speed.

Fine an area that needs to be taken down a notch minimized. This can be an entire room, one wall, or even just a shelf or desk. Remove EVERYTHING from that area. EVERYTHING! And then think about how you want that area to serve you, what you want it to look like. Go through all the items you removed and find the items that will make that area work out for you. Put nothing else there.

All that leftover stuff? If I was a hard ass I’d tell you to blindly ditch it. But I say: do a little poking around and be honest with yourself. Put those things where they belong…. in the trash, in someone else’s hands, in a different room, on a different shelf, etc.

Now what?

You can start googling “minimalism”, hitting up hashtags on social media, join /r/minimalism. If it seems like something you can benefit from you can start minimizing. Be honest with yourself about what you need and truly love to have in your life. Strip yourself down to your ideal minimalist state.

This process helped me to realize how much I really really love alternative fashion (the pandemic helped with that as well). It helped me to realize how much I don’t really enjoy drawing or painting. I know now not to buy those supplies. I do enjoy doing collage, off and on. I also came to appreciate my absolute pure lust for hand knit socks. I love looking at hand knit socks, looking at yarn, knitting them, wearing them, planning outfits around them. So I now know to steer clear or painting/drawing supplies, I know to keep collage material on hand, and I allow myself to stock up on sock yarn and patterns.

I hope this was useful to at least one curious soul out there!

time to get a shape

OK so my back has been fucky for about a week now. I haven’t had an injury like this for quite awhile, probably because I’ve been extra inactive, therefor I am extra weak.

I had cleaned half the tub the week before and spent a few days with one side of my back suffering consequences. When that was better I prepared a lot of boxes to take out to recycling and a day or 2 later the other side of my back started hurting, but like in a terrible “You actually injured something and it keeps seizing and making it hard to walk” kind of way.

Standing and leaning are the worst for it but for some reason I can crawl around on the floor just fine? Also squatting is a huge no-no.

So I need to build some core strength. I hope it will help me not to be in so much pain after doing chores. So I was thinking I should get back into Ashtanga yoga. But I remembered how weak and pathetic my arms and legs are so here is what’s happening, with lots of corner cutting to accommodate for my back problem:

Pre-workout Ashtanga.. for as long as I can stand it (first day I only lasted maybe 7 minutes, 2nd day I got to nearly 12). Some of this seems to help my back a little bit.

Then I take a break and work on some stretching to help any problem areas. Right now my problem area is the weird thing in my lower back and I found this video helps it feel better.

And then I do the daily challenge for Chloe Ting’s 2 week shred challenge.

And then I do maybe a little bit more friendly stretches to cool down, all nice ‘n easy-like.

Then I was thinking of tossing something kind of chill to do at my leisure throughout the rest of my day. Like today I did my arms and I can already tell it’s going to help me build some strength. I love the wall pushups! I wish I knew about those sooner.

I think I’ll also toss in some of this since I have to do a lot of laying around anyway.

Anyway, I went ahead and took some starting measurements but I don’t think I’ll keep track of it. I’ll be able to feel my progress as I exercise. Since my focus is leaning more towards core rather than limbs then I’ll toss the limb work for now if I need to.

Have you gotten weak and doughy lately as well? Have you made any plans to do any exercising? I’d like to hear about it down below.

2020 review & 2021 plans

Pre-2020 Madness

To explain my 2020 I need to explain what happened in the summer of 2019: I realized I have The Big Gay (I still need to make a post about this). The problem here is I have been married to a man. And I have no job. And I have some shitty issues so I can’t currently support myself.

what i think of every time someone tells me to “just get a job”

I haven’t had a job in a long time and it’s not for lack of wanting one, or lack of trying. I readily admit that I gave up ages ago and fell into a cozy housespouse role. I found that it has been beneficial for my mental and physical health and I realize how insanely lucky I am and I am thunkful every single fucking day.

So this Gay Revelation was the catalyst for trying to become a Productive Member of Society. I started taking a good hard long look at my fucking issues and paying attention to how they affect my life. Sure I’ve got anxiety and depression and leaving the house on my own makes me feel panicky and like I’m actually going to puke. Those seem like totally treatable things but they seemed kind of surface level.

I don’t remember how anymore but I somehow found myself peeking into the online autism world and finding myself relating. I looked into it pretty hard and realized it probably wouldn’t be worth getting a diagnosis and I am pushing 40 so I didn’t think this needed to be pursued. Then at some point, somehow, I realized that I may have ADHD.

When this realization dawned on me it was like this click. A puzzle piece. A big ol cosmic click of a cosmic puzzle piece. I had no clue what ADHD really was before so it wasn’t something I thought I had before. I took a pile of online quizzes and stalked the online community and omgwtf. This became my mission: Getting diagnosed. And I did so early this year.

Early 2020 – Whoops I have ADHD

This revelation was so validating. So empowering. And so… depressing. There is no fucking cure, of course. There’s a ton of stigma behind ADHD and I’ve seen countless people say they have to hide it to get employed or to keep their job. I immediately got on Adderall and it absolutely changed my life.

I decided to take this opportunity to (try) to focus, yet again, on learning to program. With the help of Adderall I made more progress with Python in 6 months than I did in 10 fucking years. I found it also took the edge off my depression and anxiety and it makes me more relaxed. Things were really looking up… until I realized that I still hate programming. It’s so boring. There is no part of it that is compatible with the way I think, no part that clicks with me. There is no enjoyable part of it except seeing errors go away.

A few months ago I decided to try a different form (XR) to hopefully make my days a bit better but it did absolutely nothing for me. Now the pandemic is so bad it’s not worth risking to go pick up my IR refill. I have been thinking about shifting my job studies to something like web design. I used to love doing web design way back in the day. Was I ever good at it? Fuck no. But I enjoyed it.

But the stress from the pandemic and not having my Adderall… super not helpful. So now I’m kind of…. lost.

Which comes to something that came up just this week: a good friend of mine is trying to convince me I have narcolepsy with cataplexy.

OK HOLD ON. I don’t think I actually have it but I think she’s on to something. As we talked it was really incredibly nice having someone to relate to as far as sleep issues go. I have had my sleep issues my entire life but I never addressed them. Much like the ADHD thing I just thought I was lazy or normal whatever. But naw, this shit ain’t normal. I know something is wrong so with that…

2021 Plans: Addressing the Sleep Issues

So for 2021, when things are less… pandemic-y… I’m going to go see a sleep specialist. Who knows, maybe I do have narcolepsy. Or sleep apnea. Or both. Or something else. In any case, if I can get to the bottom of this it’s possible to improve the quality of my life and improve my chances of Building a Foundation for Success.

So here’s the shit that makes my friend (not me, not a doc, just my friend) thinks I have narcolepsy:

  • Lots of daytime sleepiness.
    This seems like such a “normal” thing to me so I’m used to it. It also fluctuates. The past few months I’ve been almost completely dead tired in a new kind of way almost constantly except in the evening. I think it’s related to weather changes and allergies, which I’m suffering with for the first time ever. But the last couple weeks the tiredness has been mostly because I have been getting a constant 3-5 hours of shitty sleep every night (*cough* morning).
  • Quick REM stage
    I often start dreaming pretty quickly and I dream a lot. I can tell because I wake up so often I can get a sense for how much time has passed. I have stopped keeping a clock near where I sleep but that used to tell me how quick I am to dream. I always thought this was normal.
  • Takes awhile to get to sleep and has fitful sleep
    Yeah, as it says on the tin. My entire life I’ve had a hard time getting to sleep. If I am overtired then it’s even harder and stressful. I also wake up a lot doing my sleep. I had a fitbit once and tried comparing my sleep pattern to my husband’s (yeah it’s not like a perfect tool for it but it was pretty interesting) and I obviously had much more fitful sleep than him.
  • Hallucinations
    When I wake up I will often have hallucinations. Yes, I am wide awake and can move around and I know the things aren’t real though it is still disturbing and disrupting to my sleep.
  • Cataplexy
    She seems to think I have cataplexy. If I’m standing and I laugh I bend over to support myself. If I get startled I feel like I’m going to faint. I feel like the fainting bit is a different problem but she thinks it’s cataplexy.
  • Naps suck
    I hate napping because I don’t wake up refreshed and it takes too long to actually fall asleep. I only lay down to nap if I am so uncomfortable that the idea of sleeping offers me hope of escape from the tiredness. This whole “Just take a 20 minute nap” thing is such bullshit when you spend that 20 minutes (and more) tossing and turning and in a half sleep/dream state. It just sucks, man. But boy it does feel good to lay down.
  • Awake at night
    A Big Curse. Even when I’m getting “good” sleep (which is still really fitful) I will be tired to some degree throughout the day and only “wake up” at night. It’s when I feel like I can start doing shit.

So yeah, there might be more but honestly I’m so tired right now it’s hard trying to be organized. But yeah, I’m going to see a sleep specialist and see what can be done.

BLACK.LIVES.MATTER.

Wow. Where do I even begin?

On my FB page I’ve been posting a bunch of stuff supporting black businesses and individuals. I’ve posted a little bit on my IG (it feels clunky to do there but I’ll do more). It’s been such a crazy week I… I still don’t know what I’m doing. So I’ll share some of the things I’ve found along the way.

I’ll try to remember to add more later.

10 black owned businesses to support instead of Dolls Kill

A Big List of Black Goth/Punk owned businesses

A Big List of Black kawaii owned businesses

Bandcamp is dedicating Juneteenth to donating to NAACP

11 Black owned vegan businesses that ship nationwide

goth 101/FAQ

So you’ve seen some spooky bitches with wild hair, dripping in black clothes, and you thought “Ohhh I wanna be goth too”.

First of all: There is a chance that those people were not goth. They could have been metalheads, emos, KISS, or any other type of people. You can’t tell what kind of music someone listens to by what they wear. Unless they’re wearing band merch*.

If you’re only after advice for some kind of dark aesthetic then this post isn’t for you. If you want to learn about getting into goth music, read on! I promise to try to keep it brief.

What is goth music?

Goth rock characteristics include a prominent, lead bassline; minimal, flanging guitar; tribal, 4/4 post punk drum beat or drum machine; baritone or unusually high pitched vocals; introspective and romantic lyrical themes; sinister 80s keyboards in minor key and reverb.

How to Tell the Difference between Emo and Goth

It’s a genre of music that came out of the late 70’s. It developed from post-punk, which I, and others, often lump in together under the goth umbrella. But it doesn’t really belong there.

The subgenres of goth music are: death rock, dark wave, ethereal wave, and cold wave. So if you’re flipping through a deathrock playlist and you find you don’t like them, there’s a chance you’ll like something from one of the other categories.

What songs/bands would you reccomend?

I really love Sisters of Mercy and anybody that sounds like them so I will always recommend them. You can check out my goth playlist list here on YouTube. It started out as just picking one song I liked from various goth band but I stopped doing that. I have a nice little variety but you can tell what I like the most.

You can see my Top Goth Songs list here.

Here is somebody else’s Goth playlist.

What about Marilyn Manson, Type 0 Negative, NIN, and thisothernotgothband?

They’re not goth. They’re some other genre. Probably metal or gothic metal.

A lot of people seem to take personally when they find out some band they like isn’t goth. It’s not a personal thing. It’s weird to act like it is. Stop it.

If I walked into a metal group and asked if Sisters of Mercy were metal I would hope that they’d say no, and help me understand why not. And I wouldn’t take it personally. I’d take the opportunity to learn.

What about Addams Family? Edgar Allen Poe? Elvira?

These are all gothic characters, authors, etc. Gothic and goth are not the same thing. Gothic refers to an aesthetic, a type of literature, and other specific dark things. So unless Edgar Allen Poe was still alive today and is rocking out to some Bauhuas, he is not goth.

But what if I want to listen to other music?

Then listen to other music. You can like any other genre of music while also liking goth. Some might argue that goth should be your favorite and maybe I’d agree but also if you like metal just as well then you are a goth metalhead. It ain’t that deep.

OK, but what should I wear?

Just come as you are. Wear what you want. You can be any shape, size, color, creed… goth music is for everyone.

But if you want to “dress goth”, you can get a band shirt. Or do a DIY battle jacket (goths love DIY, I’m slightly allergic). Add some pins or patches to your shit to represent your favorite goth bands and BAM. You’ve got a goth outfit.

What if I don’t like the music?

You can revisit the music later to see if your tastes have changed. If not, then you’re not goth and that’s fine. There are some music genres I don’t like and that’s perfectly acceptable.

Now what?

Support your local scene! See if there are any clubs near you that have a goth night. There are other genres that are often blended in with goth music, like industrial, but eh, whatchagonnado.

Support the bands you like! Buy their music, buy their merch. See if they’re on Bandcamp. Follow them on social media. Go to their shows.

And last: Find some online goth communities. This can be rather tough. About 9/10 goth communities are filled with everything but goth. My favorite is the goth subreddit. There is also a Discord server, linked in the post pinned to the top of the subreddit.

* And even then you can’t tell for sure because there are people out there who wear a band t shirt without knowing it’s a band t shirt. They “just liked the design”.

things I own one of

Awhile ago I saw a small trend of people on YouTube showing what they own 1 of. I thought it was pretty interesting. I don’t know why but I like seeing what people have. What’s in your purse? What’s in your house? This new topic scratches that itch for me. So I’ll share my list for people who need a scratch too.

kitchen

  • eating utensil (a spoon, also doubles as cooking spoon)
  • plate
  • drinking glass
  • coffee cup
  • reusable straw
  • instant pot (no pots or pans)
  • kettle
  • basic tools like can opener, ladle, etc

skin/makeup/bath

  • blush
  • blush brush
  • highlighter
  • eye shadow brush
  • foundation
  • setting powder
  • mascara
  • eyebrow pencil
  • eye shadow palette
  • loose eye shadow
  • lotion
  • face moisturizer
  • soap (liquid castile)
  • shampoo (when hair is dyed, else just use soap)
  • razor

clothes

  • jacket
  • sweater
  • bra
  • belt (functional)
  • belt (fashionable)
  • pants
  • leggings
  • shorts (these might be ditched soon, they’re so uncomfortable)
  • set of workout clothes
  • flats
  • earrings
  • bracelet
  • onesie

personal

  • purse
  • backpack
  • wallet
  • credit card
  • phone
  • sunglasses
  • glasses
  • water bottle
  • journal
  • comb
  • brush
  • vape
  • headphones

misc.

  • tv
  • portable gaming device
  • vacuum
  • steam mop
  • musical instrument (ukulele)

my top 10 goth songs

Wow ok so I haven’t done anything for Music Mondays for ages and this time it’s going to be a little different. I’m going to wander through my goth (and aligned) music playlists and pick my favorite 10. I’ll say ahead of time that I’m not really good at talking about music in an intelligent manner so commentary won’t be particularly nourishing to this post.

Presented in a half-arsed order:

Joy DivisionShe’s Lost Control
What kind of top 10 goth list would be complete without a little post-post, especially Joy Division?

The Birthday PartyDeep in the Woods
Dear lord. I love this song. Nick Cave brings in some fanfuckingtastic lyrics and I just love the dirty grindiness of it.

Deine LakaienOne Night
I think this song could be replaced without too much bother. But that voice….

The Merry ThoughtsPale Empress
I don’t know, I just really like it. Lovely music, lovely voice, love me a pale bitch. This is my kind of love song.

O.ChildrenRuins
I like a few of this band’s songs, my other favorite one is Dead Disco Dancer. But this one I think is a little better for this list.

Dronning Maud LandHollow Eyes
This song slaps.

Siouxsie and the BansheesSpellbound
This was going to be Boy Harsher’s Fate but then I remembered how much I love Spellbound. Maybe it’s because it’s catchy and gets stuck in my head. But it is a pretty fun song with interesting lyrics so that makes for a pretty hard song to pass up.

BauhausBela Lugosi’s Dead
Yeah I’m a basic bitch. Fite me.

Paralyzed AgeMy Guest
I was pretty obsessed with this song when I first heard it, maybe even more than my #1 pick. I guess it just checks all the boxes for what I like in goth music.

#1 The Sisters of MercyMarian
While it was just as difficult to put this list together as it is to do any sort of music list, I knew this would be my top favorite. I’ve loved this song since the first day I heard it and it’s always the song I mention if someone asks my favorite goth song. And as I said with the song above, it checks all the boxes I like in a goth song.

Fucked up Art I did as a Teen

So I recently came across a small pile of art I did back in the 90’s. I had mostly completely forgotten about all of it. I have spent some time selecting the most beautiful, well-executed and thought provoking pieces. Looking back I wonder why I didn’t keep up on my artistic talents. Who knows how many world famous galleries I’d be in today?

/s. So much /s.

First up we have this… thing:

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So this is an interesting thought experiment in the existentialism presented in the darkest corners of our internal landscape.

But you can’t just sit back and enjoy something like this. You have to stick your nose right up to it, much like I must have done when I rendered this masterpiece (I never wore my glasses).

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Behold!

Clearly that lurching feeling in  your stomach comes from envy. “What brilliance… I never could have drawn that well as a teen!” you must thing. Surely. Right?

Let’s not dwell too long, we have a couple more things to look at!

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For fuck’s sake. What in the world…?!

I used to draw those flower formation things with a compass all. the. time. Surely it must represent my desire to grow and please authority, while still holding onto a wild and dangerous sense of self.

Again, a close up is in order…

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Attention to detail… unrivaled.

And my most favorite treasure of this timeless collection:

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Yes, “thank you Master”, you say, tears in your eyes and a swelling, gagging, sense of gratitude in your chest.

You’re welcome. 

Music Mondays 10/26/15

OK I didn’t have a super adventurous music week but here’s a couple things!

First up we have Raury. I heard this song while drunk and it was amazing so I made sure I shared it here.

Next up we have Merciful Nuns. If you love Sisters like Mercy like me (notice the name similarity?) you will probably like these guys. I found out about these guys a couple months ago. I don’t think I shared them here before but here’s one of their songs:

I really need to explore both of these more… but that’s it from me this week!

What have you been listening to this week??

*eta* I JUST found this band as I was closing out the Merciful Nuns video. I kinda like ’em!